Attention! I have started a business, making and selling bowties! I will also be selling things such as tie dye tees, and printed tees, and possibly ugly dolls!
I’ll keep you updated on new stock etc, and when the website is up and running I’ll post links on here! :)
this evening I have to see my family for my aunty’s birthday, and i just looked in the mirror and felt like i look fatter than normal. again, i’m falling into an old mindset, that i don’t really want to. I used to look in the mirror and on days that I had eaten and not thrown up, I thought I looked fatter than the days I had either not eaten or had and had thrown up.
I keep punishing myself, I used to cut and eat and cut and eat to hurt myself, but now I just eat twice as much. And today I found myself eating again, and I felt so awful I felt I needed to throw up. So I have been sat here in the bathroom for the past hour trying everything I can to do it. But I can’t. I don’t want to go there again. I don’t want to start throwing up again. It’s been years since I have done. I thought I was getting better, clearly not.
I don’t want people in my life anymore, not even the people I really really love. I don’t want to see, speak to, or even know anyone because I always care too quickly and too much, and I can’t take it anymore. I need to get out of here but I have nowhere to go, and I can’t go anywhere of my own accord because I’m too young. I don’t know how much longer I can take this.
so you can come online to change your fucking profile picture but you ignore the message that it took about 300% of my confidence to send you, and you know how fucking difficult it was for me to do